Days are crawling by here sometimes, but then it feels like the weeks are flying by.
I'm doing alright these days, although I'm starting to feel frustrated about work and my lack of any career path. Starbucks is paying not-enough per hour, and I'm averaging around not-enough hours a week. I had a job interview last week that I was really excited about, and I haven't heard back since. That frustrates me, because I can charm the pants off anyone, and I can also walk the walk.
So that's frustrating. It's funny how the simple equation of no money = little spending options, can be so frustrating. I mean, in theory the idea is pretty obvious that not having much money means you can't do a lot. In practice it's just as obvious, yet so frustrating sometimes. I'm stuck trying to pick and choose what I have to cut out of my life that's fun. I've never had to do that before. Take the next week. I can go back to nanaimo to hang out with my best friends that are in town for a few days. I can also go to Stone Temple Pilots for a free concert in vancouver next week.
But I can't do both.
So that's frustrating. I hooked myself up a coaching job here in Victoria to both volunteer and stay connected with soccer. I almost thought it'd be a fun opportunity, like it was last year. Couldn't be more wrong. I coach eighteen 17-20 year olds, and they are almost all egotistical children that won't listen, follow directions, or even play simple soccer. I can take ego guys, or guys that don't listen well, as long as they do their job on the soccer field. That's a trade-off with many athletes that all coaches deal with. Not only do my guys strive to be mediocre and fuck around all the time, they like to bitch and moan about not getting winning results. Well ain't life grand? I'm obviously not a good enough coach to take this group anywhere, so I'm getting over it, and we're going to have a fun time fucking around all season.
On to the good things in life!
I signed with a soccer team in Nanaimo, and I plan to play with them when they travel down to victoria every few weeks. I've been getting back to playing soccer, and it's quite an adjustment playing with only one eye. It's coming back quickly though, but I won't be able to fully return to last years form. My field vision is really bad, but I underestimated the lengths that having a smart soccer mind takes me. That being said, sometimes my touch is pretty bad, as my fine motor skills are pretty thrashed.
What else is great in my life?
There's a video game coming out in a few weeks that I'm excited about. I doubt that non-serious gamers are overly aware of the online gaming community. Over the last year I guess I've developed into quite the serious video gamer. I had never played more than an hour or two of online video games before February 2010, and since then I've gotten really into it. I've had a lot of success playing a few different games, and losing an eye hasn't effected my skill at all.
Anyways, some players in the gaming community film their own gameplay, and add their own commentary to it. People make gameplay commentaries to teach people, showcase their skills, and sometimes make money. The main forum for these gameplay commentaries is Youtube, and I think that I'd like to try making some videos of me commentating my own gameplay in the near future. Call of Duty: Black Ops is coming out in a few weeks, and if I can get a capture card that's compatible with a Mac, then I can get on it. It's exciting to think about, and I'd only be doing it to teach people how to get better. I don't have illusions of grandeur, making money or becoming 'youtube popular' - I would just have fun producing good gameplays and funny/insightful commentaries. An example of a gameplay commentary is here.
We'll see. May not happen until Christmas. In the meantime, I'm going to grind out some more starbees, some cold soccer practices, and some pitiful paydays while I continue to trailblaze toward the elusive career path.
Thanks for reading.
'Young hearts, be free tonight'
